23-letni Cheyann so diagnozo rak postavili avgusta in bolezni je takoj napovedala boj. “Ko so mi postavili diagnozo, sem bila naprej prestrašena, toda strah je kmalu izginil. Vedela sem, da nimam druge izbire, kot da se borim. Ne bom pustila raku, da zmaga,” je povedala za revijo People. “Vedela sem tudi, da me moj mož in moja družina potrebujejo, in da jih nikakor ne morem zapustiti. In takrat sem si nataknila boksarske rokavice in se podala v ring z rakom,” še doda.

It’s crazy where life can take you in just a short year. – – This time last year, I was on stage competing in my first fitness show” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” /> Now I’m fighting for my life. – – The picture on the left is around the time they think my cancer started to form and we just caught it in August. Thankfully we have caught it in enough time that I am still able to fight and can kick Ovarian Cancers ass and be in remission one day, hopefully soon” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” /> – – At the end of the day, my life isn’t where I ever expected it to be, but I’m thankful I am where I am. I truly believe God has a plan for me and I believe it’s to help and inspire people. Just because you are going thru something, doesn’t mean you stop living. I still go to the gym, I still laugh, cry, sing (horribly), and just enjoy each and every second of every single day. – – Life is all about what you make it out to be; and I’ll be damned if I let a little bit of cancer stop me from living my life to the fullest” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” /> – – #fuckcancer #ovariancancer #selflove #bestself #fitspo #fitfam #fitlife #gymspo #npc #npcbikini #npcbikinicompetitor #npcathlete #gymshark #alphalete #squats #loveyourself #youtube #follow

A photo posted by Cheyann Shaw (@cheymarie_fit) on Oct 10, 2016 at 7:25pm PDT

Nemudoma je začela s kemoterapijo in oktobra prestala težko operacijo, s katero bi se raka znebili. Med pet ur in pol trajajočo operacijo so ji zdravniki odstranili vranico in slepič, del njenega črevesja in ji popolnoma odstranili želodec. Že pred operacijo je izgubila skoraj 7 kilogamov od vsega skupaj 59, kolikor je tehtala prej. Po trinajstih dneh, ki jih je preživela v bolnišnici po operaciji, pa je njena teža padla na 46 kilogramov. 

“Težko je gledati, kako izginjajo vse moje mišice in kako gre vse moje trdo delo v nič. Še vedno zelo težko gledam svoje stare slike, na katerih sem fit in mišičasta. Težko mi je,” prizna in dodaja: “Vem, da videz ni vse, toda ko leta posvetiš delu na svojem telesu in se trudiš po najboljših močeh, da bi bilo kar se da popolno, je težko gledati, kako vse izginja.” 

Post surgery update!! – – It’s been about 2 almost 3 weeks since surgery and I’m feeling great. I’ve only been home for a couple days but it feels amazing. So I have a nice little scar and that bag…..that bag is my “poop bag” – – There unfortunately was cancer on my colon so they had to take some colon out and to give it time to heal redirected everything to my side. I’ll have this bag for about 3 months and will get everything reversed and be back to normal. But for now I can walk and poop so don’t judge me ” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” /> – – When they were in surgery they did find out I’m actually Stage 4 because the cancer was in my spleen and I do have cancer in my lymph nodes, but I’m not worried. Just another bump to get over and with GOD by my side I’m not scared. I’ll be fine and GOD will get me through this. I have a story to tell and I’m not done telling it and GOD knows that” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” /> – – I’m proud of my scar and “poop bag” because it already shows that I’m a fighter and a survivor. I wear my war wounds proudly” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” /> – – #fuckcancer #ovariancancer #seattleseahawks #bestself #selflove #npc #npcbikini #ifbb #npccompetitor #bikini #bikinicompetitor #bikinifitness #bikiniathlete #fitlife #fitspo #fitlife #follow #inspiration #happiness #womensfitness #womenshealth #motivation #squat #squatspo #country #countrymusic #countrygirl #smile

A photo posted by Cheyann Shaw (@cheymarie_fit) on Nov 17, 2016 at 8:30pm PST

Toda Cheyann se vsak dan znova prisili, da se znebi teh negativnih misli. “Ugotovila sem, da lahko znova zgradim in nazaj pridobim moč. In kljub temu, da sem vse izgubila, se imam še vedno rada. Sedaj sem videti drugače in se na to še privajam, ampak stvar je le začasna. Tako kot je začasna ta bitka. Ta bitka se bije le v glavi in vem, da če bom dopustila, da me moj videz potare, potem je rak zmagal.”

Sedaj, mesec dni po operaciji, še vedno hodi na kemoterapijo, toda stara energija se ji vrača in dobila je dovoljenje, da lahko spet telovadi. “Še vedno me čaka veliko okrevanja, toda vsak dan se počutim močnejša. Sicer lahko sedaj dvigujem le lahke uteži, vendar je bolje kot nič,” pove.

Soooo…..I HAVE GOOD NEWS!!! My lymph nodes have not grown nor shrunk, they have stayed the same size! So that’s good news! – – I will start on 2 different forms of Chemo in the next couple weeks” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” />” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” /> I’m excited to get the process going and getting one step closer to being cancer free” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” /> – – God is truly working. I can see it and feel it. I know God has chosen me for many reasons but the main reason I feel is to show that God is not dead and he is always with us. My faith has already given me so much strength and joy in this crazy journey, but at the end of the day I know I will be fine because God is working and he will heal me” class=”wp-smiley” style=”height: 1em; max-height: 1em;” /> – – #fuckcancer #ovariancancer #seattleseahawks #bestself #selflove #npc #npcbikini #ifbb #npccompetitor #bikini #bikinicompetitor #bikinifitness #bikiniathlete #fitlife #fitspo #fitlife #follow #inspiration #happiness #womensfitness #womenshealth #motivation #squat #squatspo #country #countrymusic #countrygirl #smile #godisnotdead

A photo posted by Cheyann Shaw (@cheymarie_fit) on Nov 29, 2016 at 8:47pm PST

Cheyann upa, da bo s tem, ko je svetu razkrila svoje telo pred boleznijo in sedaj po operaciji, tudi druge ljudi spodbudila k temu, da imajo radi svoje telo, ne glede na izzive in težave, ki jih prinaša življenje. “Moja bitka z rakom me je veliko naučila. Všeč sem si taka kot sem in rada pomagam tudi drugim.”